food for [t h o u g h t].

well i'm sitting in my roooom, as always. just got back to this place. had a to go to the emergency room last night. i'm good now thoooo. soo i was just sitting here with maxie && i wanted to share the random thoughts going through my head. . .guess this is multiple food for thoughts && other things. . . .here it goes.

- well i'll start with a declaration/question. have you ever missed an ex ?? even if things ended bad?? well i have, i won't lie. but today i declare that i will stop missing the things that used to be. there in the past for a reason && although things in the present might not always be so dandy, i'm destined to head in the direction of greatnesssssssssssss. no more looking back !! only forward.

- okay, so why does it seem that sometimes we like people who obviously show no interest in us or play around && treat us bad. . .but don't give the people who really care the time of day?? && i'm not talking about when someone likes you && you don't like them. i'm talking about when it's mutal, but you don't give them the time forreal. i'm just saying.

- i say this all the time in person but i don't think i've mentioned it up here. but as a pretty brown/dark skin young woman i'd like to know. . .guys why is it that a light skin girl doesn't have to be pretty to be "badd". . .?? a light skin girl can be average && niggas will think she the baddest, but it's def not soo for a darker girl. i know i'm not crazy so maybe the guys can help me out on that one. . . .

- since we're on the topic of dudes, ladies why is it that when you finally make up in your mind that you will leave a dude alone for good, he's suddenly back up your a%$?? it's like a radar that goes off in their head. . .it's like a trappppppp. ugh.

- for some reason nowadays i don't mind being alone. i've always been known to be the social one when i was in highschool, but that is definitely not the case in college. but for some reason as much as i kinda miss the social life, i kinda like being dolo.

- i heard this one in church today. why is it that people naturally crave things that aren't good for them ?? food, people, habits, && everything else under the sunnnnn. living on the edge. . . .

- this is another declaration: i will not complain about how much i don't like the school i am at. thas a promiseeeeeee. if i do what i have to do, i'll be where i want to be.

- the last thing is this random thought that keeps running through my head: "in a perfect world it would be you, me, && kanye west would be playing in the background" don't know who that you is thooooooo.

well thas all for now. . .

until next time. . . .

a little bit of [t h i s] && a little bit of [t h a t];

oh blog, how i have missed theeeeeee. lol. but seriously man, school has me very busy so when something exciting does happen i don't seem to have the time to blog,

but i've been sleep all day && i'm drugged up so here goes the blog diarrhea,

soooo the main question i've been getting lately is "how's school...??"

&& i reply, "classes are good." && i mean just that. i ♥ the classes i'm taking, i know GOD has me here for a reason, && i will do my year && transfer, but besides that. . . .let's just say i'm not hampton's biggest fan.

i mean they should really call the school "mandatory university" because you have to go to all these dumb events. && they give out sheets to make sure you were there like we in pre-school.

but my biggest thing is that i can't figure out where my 30,000 dollars is going when the showers looking like they might cave in on you. . . . ???

lemme stop yo. cuz the old saying around here is that "it's what you make it." the jury is still out on that one, but other than that i'm doing the same thing, being the same robin. i'm still fighting this ongoing battle of allergies as you can see. . .[viewer discretion is advised.]

[NO I DO NOT HAVE A STD !!] i must make that clear when i talk about this. sooo i've been on a million medicines that haven't worked. . .so just keep me in prayer. ya'll never know what someone is going through underneath it all, that is def one thing this has taught me. that might be random, but it's true.

anywhooo, on to a lighter topic. this past weekend i made a trip back to my side of the water, back to the good ol P. haha. but it was good to see my fam.

you know i had to hit the streets, but there wasn't much going on.

i continued on to whatever stage of this "going natural" process that i am in. . .it's definitely a work in progress. [ya'll see them waves tho ??]

but i'm doing the curls thing for now. . .until i can get my funds right for some african queen twist again. any volunteers ?? ha.

but the best thing about coming home was reuniting with my best friend in this whole wide lonely world !! christiannnnnnnnnnn.

i swear these two girls are my heart. when we get together. . .the good times roll to say the least. lol. soooo ari, christian, && i ended up going over to christian's house.

*PAUSE* tell me why we saw this on the way to christian's house?? c'mon black people, we got to do better !! && he had the nerve to turn it onnnnnnnn !!

well anywhooo, after eating breakfast for dinner at christian's, talking about random things, && ari falling asleep. . .christian && i decided to go up to hampton so she could see the madness. look who we ran in to. . . .travissss !! ahh, debutante memories, lol.

well the next day was sunday, && after a much needed day in church i went to visit my gramssssssss.

did i forget to mention that sunday was christian's birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyy. yay !! that girl is finally legal. we went out to eat. after we went to her house for some cake.

&& soon, after catching up, laughing, joking around, && talking, it was time to say goodbye to christian, =(. but it really wasn't goodbye, only see you laterrrr.

well, thas how my weekend went. && it's been a rough week with me having a cold, doc appts., school, && these allergies, but hey the weekend's almost here againnnnn !!

today's food for thought goes a little something like this. "they say people in your life are seasons, && anything that happen is for a reason"-kanye west. while all of my idol's actions may not please everyone [ha.], his words speak truth.

sometimes no matter how long or short it may be, people are in your life for seasons. people are meant to hurt you, love you, lie to you, cuss you out, make you happy && prove they aren't who you thought they were. while some people are put in your life to last forever some aren't. && though it may hurt sometimes the ones we thought would be forever may be the ones we see go. but hey, without experience of these things, how would we gain knowledge ?? just something to think about.

today's array of pictures comes mostly from photobooth off of my lovely mac, with some of the people i love most. it can become addictive. there are other randomsss too. enjoy !! or not.

happy birthday christiannnnnn !! how i love theee.

macbookpro: photobooth, it's addictive

i sometimes literally feel like this. . .

derrell && i. [two thoatsssss, ha.]

can't you tell we missed each otherrrrr ?? ha.

a one-eyed curl type of world.

hope you had a happy birthday ride or dieeeeee !!

until next time. . .

[ps.] i still haven't forgot about the "former roommate story" !!

this is a [p s a]

to all my followers, readers, browsers, && everyone else:

this is a. . .

PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT.

i apologize for my absence/lack of posts this month. i'm at a point right now where i really don't give a f*$%.

i blog about things that go on in my life that i enjoy or random happenings. . . . . .but lately, there's been an absence of those types of things. i have yet to meet someone or somethin i would actually blog about.

but don't worry, this weekend my best friend in the world is coming homeeeee!!

so until then. . .i'm sorry you guys.

ohhhh, but on the next post, i'm going innnnnn on my former rommate, yes, former. long story.

all i can say is pray for me, cuz i'm on the dark side of the moon right now.

until next time. . . . .

rain, rain, go [a w a y] !!

soo its a rainy monday night. i started classes today !! they were pretty cool. it was the wet weather && the fact my hair exploded every time i stepped out a building that made the day a tad frustrating. or maybe the fact that my umbrella flipped up at the drop of a dime. let's just say going natural is harder than i thought && i'm glad to be in my room.

friday i became an official hamptonian. i was escorted to the induction ceremony by this lovely young man, james. the other girl is jessica.

after that tho i kicked of my heels && later on that night i headed back to the place i loved, HOME !! i combed my curls out. . .

soo the next day i washed my hair. i finally got to see how my hair was really cut. && after an hour of curling. . . .

my hair was done !! i really like the new doo. what ya'll think ??

so after i was pretty again, i was ready to hit the scene !!

tonisha came && got meee !! we were supposed to go to the norfolk state vs. virginia state game, but kinda didn't make it.

sooo instead this group of girls headed to sip && bowl instead. a party at the bowling alley basically. everyone thought it was going to be whack, but it was my idea to go so you know that wasn't the case, jay kayyy. but it was funn tho.

[clockwise: tonisha, tashaun, sha'kara, b'yonka, && i]

before we hit that scene tho, i had to update my padres on the latest dance moves. check that hair swing tho, lol.

anywhoo, bowling was funnnn. the new crew was there minus koron. [ant in the back]

there was a dj there, so you know i was happy !! i displayed some signature moves,

&& took pics with some of my favorite people,

when they weren't tied up with alllllllll the bait !! haha, so basic.

sunday, i spent time with my famm. the love of my life, lil simone came overrrr.

it's always good to spend time with the ones you ♥♥ !!

♥♥♥ !!

today's food for thought comes from some advice i recently gave to my friend chris h. he said he was going through hell. so today's thought is this. doesn't it seem like sometimes the best things come out of the worst situations ?? sometimes you have to go through hell just to experience && more importantly appreciate the heaven you receive in return. a wise man once said you have to look beyond the circumstances you see right now !!

today's array of pictures comes from my great weekend !! enjoy, or not.

love you too toe babayyyy!!

two loves of my lifeeeee.

w.e. waters middle school tho ?? heyy, my scarf matched my dresssss !! neatooo.

until next time. . . .