flaws & all .. confessions of a young black girl.

with the post letter from the editor , i got to thinking .. maybe i should post random confessions , thoughts , and other ish on my brain for feedback or just for me .. either way is cool with me , okay ? okay.

i would say i'd do this in parts .. but judging my posting habits this summer , i wouldn't want to make any promises. ya know ? i'll just go with the flow.


let's start with : five confessions of summer '1o 

1. this summer is NOT exactly what i thought it would be ..
2. i spend a lot of my time alone ..
3. i feel like some things/people i love are slipping away from me ..
4. i want a second chance with someone who probably isn't even thinking of me.
5. i'm actually quite ready for fall '1o.

i was blog surfing today and was inspired by a young man who wrote "i'm not boyfriend mateiral" .. i'm quick to say all the things that would make me a good girlfriend , boo thang , and everything else , but like everyone i have flaws .. soo here's some things about me.

dear mr. man , these are my flaws and all :

i'll act like i don't like you at first , because i probably don't. most likely you'll approach me because i don't make first moves due to fear of rejection. if i don't like you i won't know how to tell you .. i assume you'll catch the drift. i like what i like and you might not understand why i'll talk to him and not talk to you. don't take it personal , i'm not that sure either. *shrug.

i honestly don't like to text .. and it's evident through my dry communication habits. i'd rather talk on the phone.  i won't open up or take you 100% seriously because i'm slightly convinced you're trying to run game on me. you won't have sex with me easily and if you get the chance to i'm either extremely vulnerable or i truly , truly like you. [ not really a flaw tho. ] i'll expect you to know when something is wrong , but won't tell you because i don't want to seem like i'm complaining. i do know how to cook , but don't like to.

i'll compare you to the one i loved the most and hurt me the worst. you'll think i'm crazy because i won't say all the shxt you do that bothers me until you really start fxcking up. i'll argue until i get my point across , even if i'm wrong. i'll like you off the potential i see in you [ if i even give you a chance ] and get mad when you don't live up to it. it's probably not even your fault. and no matter what i'll always compare myself to the next girl you talk to .. and in my eyes she's 99% of the time a downgrade.

i just thought i'd share my flaws. it's easy to talk about the good. here's my bad and ugly.

sincerely,
robin.

until next time . . .

a letter from the editor ..

wow. where to begin ? first off , i'd like to thank ALL of my readers. although it seems i have abandoned this blog , i haven't. i still check on it and see that i still have visitors .. that means the  world to me. i owe you guys an apology for just leaving .. but it be like that , you know ?

it's been almost TWO months since my last post and those two months of absence only signifies  one of the most hectic , painful , bittersweet , [did i mention hectic ?] seasons in my life. but , i'm still here ! i appreciate any feedback , words of encouragement , etc. you have. believe me when i tell you this summer has truly been a learning process .. not to worry tho .. better days are coming. anywhoooo i promise i will be back soon ! i love you guys. :).

love,
robin

[ps] i wouldn't be the world ruler you love without some food for thought : what would you do if you saw something happening you knew wasn't right even if NO ONE else saw it was wrong. would you let them call you crazy for saying ? or would you succumb to everyone else's thinking ? NOOOOO.

if you know from the bottom of your heart what you believe , let no one deter you from it. what's in the dark will come to light eventually and what covers itself cannot hide forever ! ponder upon that.

"would you believe what you believe if you were the only one who believed in it ? ... sometime crazy is a label that the average put on the exceptional." - k.west , thank you and you're welcome.